Who Am I ??

I don't know, why it is
Life continues in the way it is
I'm not sure, anymore
What it is I think I'm asking for

In the deepness of my mind
I always knew this world's unkind

I'm gonna do the things I know I always wanted too
I'm gonna live my life the way I feel I wanna to
And I know I'll never lose myself in who I am
Nothing in this world could ever change me

Everyday, feels the same
Guess I'm tired of the same old game
Deep inside, I need to show
Which direction that I need to go

In the deepness of my soul
I always knew this world so cold

I'm gonna do the things I know I always wanted too
I'm gonna live my life the way I feel I wanna do
And I know I'll never lose myself in who I am
Nothing in this world could ever change me

I'm gonna do the things I know I always wanted too
I'm gonna live my life the way I feel I wanna do
And I know I'll never lose myself in who I am
Nothing in this world could ever change me

Searching for someone behind the mirror

Juz now, I was on9 wif a fren who I can barely remember. Seems like he still remember me though.(these dude yg kat cnversation bawah ni lerr..)

yeah, so much 4 me to say and to think. What am I looking 4 actually?? Was that difficult to figure it out?? yes, it is hard..more than I can imagine, because I started to lose myself bit by bit until I don't even realize it's happening. It juz did. Where am I? Who am I for God sake? Rite now, all I can say is that I barely know myself. where are all the confidence, all the memories, all the principles that I used to hold, that I used to touch, those thing that makes me for real, the one I'm not now, the one that I juz left behind until I realize it a moment ago??

I've becoming someone I don't even know that ever exist. Very soft and tiny and thin as thin as a cell layers there it goes. But kinda like I understand myself more now than previous which might be one of the reasons I'm thinking that I've changed rite now in the present. Now, I am mean, selfish, don't bother about what people think of me, don't even turn to others around me.

whereas, in previous, I alway plan for what am I supposed to do if someone is inneed, big hearted, generous, very sensitive, smile bright, hardworker, giving people advices but not very stiff. As rite now, I am more collected, do more thinking, but slow act, more to bad side. well i don't know. kinda confuse rite now.

I'm totally fucked up. I'm confiuse. I can't find the real me. these give me a headache. I feel like crying while reminiscing. I don't know.. I'm sucks. Egypt do change people either for good or for worst.

Thanks Izat, if it wasn't u, I will never realize how nice I was and I might lose myself as time goes by. Damn!! I'm totally fucked up.

something gud to be heard after a while

izat: awk ingat saya lagi x?

didi: x

izat: laaaa

didi: sape ye?
sori

izat: ingat x...saya pernah tanyakan hal saya
tentang saya gan syg saya..?
awk nasihatkan saya
masa tu saya kat atas kapal
kat miri
ingat x?

didi: haaa??
ye ke?/

izat: last ye
bulan ramadan
ingat x?

didi: xigt

izat: x pe laaa

didi: saye ckp ape ye??
mse tu npe ngn syg awk?

izat: saya tanya pasal perasaan dan hati pompuan
syg saya mcm nak x nak gan saya...
kalau x ingat x pelaa

didi: heee
sori

izat: tapi saya nak ucapkan jutaan

didi: seyes xigt

izat: terima kasih
kerana

didi: krn??
ape?

izat: kerana saya dah bertunang gan syg saya tuuuu

didi: bgus la

izat: dan akan bernikah pada 7 jun
mmmm dan hehehehe

didi: tahniah
btol ke saye ckp ngn awk??

izat: saya harap awk dpt doakan saya kekal hingga akhir hayat...



even i dun remember bout giving ppl advice...but thanks a lot dude...
it is gud sometimes to hear the old u when u r at the edge of letting it go..

well saye doakan awk semoge berbahagia sepanjang hayat...amiin..

D va