We're alway complaining what is right and what is not for us. It is our right as human being. Welcome to the world of insane n to prove the insanity is us,it is in our hands. It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Theory on how the diseases spread
Sunday, December 13, 2009
aLL of uS r B.i.T.c.H.e.S~~ I am not saying U r...
Rules number one;
- We seldom look around us, and sometimes with no thoughts of anything(blank) and we don't even realize that the eyes of ours of this God given had landed on certain person. Of course we will feel like we're just looking and its blank, but haven't said that the others that being stared, they are not feeling the same way as we did. Trust me, they will feel uncomfortable, feel like they are trapped under some sort of psychotic reverse psychology psycho or it could be "what's up with the look?".
WELL PEOPLE, THAT'S WHAT MAKE WE ARE A B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number two;
-At a time we don't want to care about others and live free, others will start to care about you. Believe me, they will take note for anything and everything you are doing, saying, and even when you are eating or drinking. Plus, they suddenly start to care when you walk down street all alone even though you always did that. Suddenly, you 'll feel like the world revolves around you, and those eyes facing towards you, looking down or up with some grunting and chuckles. Seriously, we'll have this thoughts of "what's up with them?" or shall I put in a harsh sentence for the rough idea,"what do you want B****??"..... Nevertheless, we're the one whose being stared,not them which in turn make us the B..
ALL OF US ARE B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number three;
-Also happens when you have issues that you can't tell or it is kind of stressful, you chose to be alone for a while and again with all the stares that you can not uphold,you'll get depressed. It leads to another, you rebel, start doing the stupidest thing on earth and yet people keep talking. Then again,
THAT MAKES BOTH B****.
Rules number four;
-We are human being right? But doesn't mean we are the same. Each of us have different history and normal basic life that we involve in and used to. For loners like me and a few others, we don't talk much, but doesn't mean we hate people or we hate socializing. It is just because we are not too into it like other normal girlish girl who loves gossiping, shopping, sleepover and etc. Yeah, it is a problem for us, the loners, when it gets into community. We are unable to adapt to other girls social network that easy. Please, blame us because honestly we don't know.
Let us draw some analogy here, a loner walking nearby a group of girlish girl. Awkward moment will arise, and rules number one is apply.
ALL OF US ARE B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number five;
-what makes you think you are perfect? Is it your social network? Is it your well dress stylish and stylist? Is it the way you take control of people thoughts and emotions? Is it the way you think and knowledge beyond others? or is it the way you speak? or is it because others are scared of you?
If you ask me, you are what you are. No one can change you unless you chose to be change. So be it, be yourself and that is what differentiate us all.
THAT IS WHY WE ARE B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number six;
- when we ignoring others and the world, people said we are arrogant and heartless. That was their judgement. For us, we already give up with the life of fakes and even we could turn the clock, still we don't know what to change. That makes everything sucks. Back to their judgement;
ALL OF US ARE B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number seven;
- Drama.. Drama.. Drama... We played a great scene in a stage called real life, but having said that we are not happy with it but that is the way that has to be and we keep drowning, or may be the word drowning is not suitable to be use. Let's change it to lost, or keep track, or just go with the flow may be. Humans play several and variety of characters and pose, just to impress others whereas neglecting their own satisfaction. All of us are involved, none escape. Trust me, we have been there, it is just the matter of time where we woke up from the hypnosis, either early or late, or neither nor. YOU go girl!!! DRAMA QUEEN!!!
WELL AGAIN PEOPLE, THAT'S WHAT MAKE WE ARE A B.I.T.C.H.
Rules number eight;
- We as normal human are stuck in certain degree of ego, depends on how you classify and clarify it. Doesn't matter. That ego are one of the ingredients of determining who we are now in past, present and future. Due to that degree of ego, rules number one to seven is apply.
BITCHES, WE ARE THE BITCH.
x0x0~~~~ ;P
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
To ppL out there yg krg senang dgn saya..
Lagi satu, kalau tak kenal orang, jangan nak memandai cakap and komplen la. Masing-masing ada life masing-masing. Orang kata, berkawan biar ikhlas, jangan berkawan sebab nak ubah seseorang ikut suka hati, and then tinggal orang tu w/out words. GHALIL ADAB namenye tuh. Jangan ingat aku diam, aku ok dengan perangai korang. Setakat aku boleh sabar, aku bersabar lagi. jangan lupa plak, kesabaran seseorang tu ada batasnya. kita secara sah bergelar pelajar universiti, jadi tolong la berlagak macam pelajar universiti sket.
Lagi satu kepada kawan-kawan yang bergelar baik, orang kata nak buat baik tu jangan buat setengah jalan. Agak-agak aa sket, dari 2 tahuin lepas pon korang suka camni. kalau dah tolong ambilkan dokumen atau barang orang tu, pandai-pandai la hubungi tuan punya. Orang hantar dokumen tu, mesti ada orang yang ambil. So kalau tak de yang suruh ambil, tak payah la poyo tunjuk baik tolong ambilkan kalau tak reti-reti nak contact. Panas lak aku Ni dah kali keberapa korang buat camni, aku diam je. kali ni tolong la bijak berfiir sikit ok!!
P/S: Sape yang makan cili akan terasa kepedasannya, tak pon akan mengalami diarrhea...
plus, sorry to be this direct, mungkin aku dah mencecah batas kesabaran aku..
Monday, October 12, 2009
Hari yang saye rase xbest...
huhu terpakse melepakkan diri seorang diri. haih sedey2.....
Plus, in lecture hall, the lecturers suddenly asked" are u egyptian??"
I said "noooo!!!! I am not..I'm Malaysian...isk3!!"
This maghrib plak, my bawab kt bawah, the daughter actually I think, she bell our house until I couldn't bear it. I was like mad n answer the intercom, while cursing2..and the thing that makes me even mad is, they were laughing at me as if I'm making a joke which is very very very disrespectful. They were like making fun of me. Ooh please, u people pissstttt me oofffff!!! GHALIL ADAB!!
Memang hari2 yang saye rase xbest, I dont know y egyptian have no respect to people here especially towards us. We're the guest, they should have respect and be honoured to have us as a guest.haih!! sigh2!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Why is there a cold-hearted person in me?
I don't want the evil heart takes control over my mind and my soul. Please Ya Robb, lend me Your courage and patient. I want to feel that again within me. As far as I concern, I don't want to hurt any feelings just because of uncontrolable emotions(the bad one, of course).
Give me sanity for it helps me to be wise.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Kenape dunia sekarang dah jadi macam ni????
Satu kata--->> SILA RUJUK SEJARAH PERADABAN DUNIA..
Untuk pengetahuan umum, Malaysia adalah negara yang terdiri daripada berbilang kaum dan bangsa. Ini bererti bukan sahaja Melayu yang tinggal di Malaysia. Terdapat kaum Cina dari China, India dari India sendiri. Juga terdapat Indonesia atau lebih dikenali sebagai orang Jawa dan Minang yang bermastautin tetap di Malaysia. Majoriti kami adalah 'mixed'. Jadi, disini saya ingin tekankan bahawa Malaysia tidak terdiri dari satu budaya sahaja.
Maaf kalau aku agak keras, tapi seriously aku agak bosan la dgr bende2 macam ni..n plus balak aku sendiri pon Indonesian.
Aku harap sangat semua ni boleh settle dan jadi aman.
last but not least..I'm sorry if i am wrong and once again we don't want any war between muslims aite? ade aku penah dgr satu hadis kalau xsilap berbunyi "Islam itu tidak akan kalah kalau bukan dari dalam..."
sekian.
AN EYE FOR AN EYE MAKES THE WORLD GO BLIND
maaf zahir batin
Ramadhan Kareem
Friday, August 28, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Nandeyo???
angah: ganbatte kundasai !!!
chaiyok!!!
ko msti lulus kali...kesian la dkat aq..
jp lg aq xde tmpt tdo kt bilik
didi : apsl dkat ko lak nk kesian?
kuang aja eh ko
siot
angah:ko xtau ke tenet dh amik tmpt aq dlm blik...
aq nk tdo mner kalo blik umah!!!
didi : senget aa ko
angah: waaaaa...xsggp...tp best gak dpt tdo blik mama xpun dpn tv...
didi : pape aa
angah: xnak2...nk tdo dkt blik jgak...
didi : aku tgh revise nih
jap lg exm practical
angah: btol la aq ttbe je xder blik....merempat kot
Sabau je la ade adik camnih..adeii, siap xbagi aku balik lak tuh. Aku lak yang pening, skang nih tu bilik sape sebenarnye...adoyay!!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Makes me wonder
You noe sumthin, our life is like a wheel. Anything that u want cart wheel, car wheel or any~ there r times we will be on top, in da middle and down.. that is life i guess.. well i mean it is my life..
my head is dizzy..the sounds in my head keeps bugging me.. how i wish all these r fake..n none for real~ I noe i ant live in past..i hav to move forward.. live in future..so i think i should fight in present..huh..everything is not rite here..
welll i dunno wut to do.everything is not rite..i mean everything..my life, my financial, my gloomy days, my insanity, my rationality, all sucks..except for my homies..i’m glad that i hav them rite now..so glad..thanks guys..love u guys..
i feel so stupid for trying to change my life..i can decide wut my life is gonna be, but wut leading it gave me more than a fullstop which i hav to choose for my own good..
NO TURNING BACK!!~that always be my principle.. i almost forgot, bcoz of that principle i like nike brand..hahaha wtf?? so rite now, all i’m gonna do is try to be happy for these days and all days..its time to change..eventhough i’m not so sure, but rite now that is how i felt it is..stop live in past..i hav to plan now in present n start my most enjoyable time in future.. X0X0~
Kisah muda-mudi
Waktu sedang menunggu, datang seorang lagi teman sekelas aku menyapa aku yang juga dikenali sebagai V. V mengajak aku ke kelas bersama kerana waktu masih awal. Pada mulanya aku menolak kerana aku sedang menunggu dia menjemput aku seperti hari-hari biasa. V mula mendesak, aku mencapai telefon bimbit aku itu lalu menghantar khidmat pesanan ringkas kepada dia untuk memaklumkan hal tersebut. Setelah itu aku bersetuju untuk mengikut V ke kelas. Kami menahan teksi dan tiba di kawasan kolej sekitar 10 minit kemudian. Jam masih awal. Aku menemani V menyelesaikan segala urusannya terlebih dahulu sebelum ke kelas.
Copied from my Friendster blog.....
Dear, I cant explain how much i need u when everyone is avoiding me. He’s acting weird. and u were’nt there. All my dudes r busy wif their stuff, and all i have at the moment is u. But u started to acting weird which gave me no clue. I love u.. But I dunno how to spill it when I’m with u. But I only know how to show u. I care about u. I’ve tried to start the conversation wif u, but y r u avoiding me not to speak about it whereas that’s the reason y ur not talking and avoiding me.
I only can pray u well in everything ur doing rite now. But please dear tell me wut’s going on btw us..please…i’m begging u. I misses u so much!!! I miss our r/tionship like we used to be. Although we cant get back to the past, but at least we could be frens in present n future. I juz wanted to noe wuts going on actually.. n y all da silence.. coz i love n miss us.."
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Panas lakk aku rase...
Kang eden pulo yang konoi...huh.. Pass2 barang sane-sinun, dah la xbtau dulu. Ni yang malas tahap gaban nih..haih~~~marah plak aku rase..huh!!!!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Di saat tuan punya barang meminta barangnya dipulangkan...
Kemarin, aku lupa bila tapi agak dalam masa terdekat ini. Aku dikejutkan dengan satu lagi berita dari adikku dan ayahku. Sepupu kepada ayahku atau lebih dikenali sebagai mak cik aku yang juga merupakan tetangga di kampung halaman ku itu meninggal akibat kanser. (innalillahiwainnailaihrajiun...)
Aku sedikit tergamam dan beberapa saat kemudian terbayang wajah anak lelaki mak cik aku itu yang kini harus hidup sendirian(semoga Allah sentiasa bersama kamu). Seketika kemudian tergamar bayangan adik perempuannya dahulu yang juga meninggal akibat kanser. Kini tanpa ahli keluarga yang paling dekat, dia harus berhidup tanpa ada tempat untuk bergantung.
Sendiri....sendiri...sendiri...
Well nasib baik dia dah besar, tak tergambar kalau dia masih kecil.
Apa-apa pun saya doakan Abg Ki bahagia dan hidup dengan gembira..amiin~~~
Diganggu sejenis makhluk ganasss~~
Di suatu pagi yang dingin, di kala aku enak dibuai mimpi.....
Tiba-tiba aku terbangun. Namun kelopak mata ini masih berat untuk dibuka sepenuhnya. Kelihatan satu makhluk yang agak besar dan berat yang dipenuhi bulu-bulu lebat di samping aku.
Selang beberapa saat, makhluk tersebut terus menyerang aku dan tanpa sempat aku mengelak serangannya, makhluk tadi terus menerjah ke lengan, betis dan akhirnye hampir ke muka. Aku yang sedikit mamai dan dengan muka busuk berkata "Neno.....Jangan aa kacau. Nak tido aaa..."
Tanpa menghiraukan omongan aku, makhluk td meneruskan serangannya dengan menjilat2 lengan, tangan dan kaki aku. Apabila dia mahu menempek di bahagian muk, aku langsung terbangun. "Ala...Neno lapar ke??? Tapi bagi yogurt xnak makan..Neno nak makan ape??"
Aku pun bangun keluar dari kamar peraduanku terus memuka pintu putih yang mengandungi segala macam objek untuk didinginkan(peti ais la tu..amboii susah benau nak paham ni haaa).
Aku mengambil sesudu yogurt buat Neno. Akan tetapi, hampa yang datang. Neno tetap berkeras tidak mahu makan.
Aku segera membasuh tangan sambil mengganti air minuman Neno yang sudah agak lama terbiar. Kemudian, aku sepantas kilat menyambar Bitzza Tuna yang kami order semalam dari Hegazz... Aku meninggalkan secebis buat Neno. 'Memang berkesan kata-kata ayah mentua P.Ramlee dalam filem 3 Abdul.. Ambil bau saja pun dah kenyang...haih!!'
dah la Neno...nak sambung tido, jangan kacau.(berharap tidak diganggu......zzzzzzzzzzzzzz)
hehehe~~~
Friday, July 24, 2009
Independent woman should work on her own and stands on her own
I know they frustrated on everything. They too have their own problems. My saudara is on hospital rite now, same penyakit as my cousin and apparently almost the same with her own daughter. I know things mixed up rite now.
So am I here.
I think I can't make it. I'm not that strong I guess. Feel like wanna go home, no where but home..
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Reaksi Kepada Mentally-iLL person
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Bile kite tersepit antara perasaan sendiri dengan kejadian yang tidak diingini terjadi....
I don't know how to put this into a proper sentences and proper words. Tapi I feel like I cannot call my baby botak,, 'Botak' anymore.. isk3!! sedey~~` :'(
sebab saye suke panggil die Botak,tapi..... haih!!
Senang nak jage hati orang lain,, ingat senang ke nak jage hati sendiri???
Bile hati sendiri kite kena abaikan demi kebaikan orang lain dan bersama.. tapi macam mana kalau orang tu tak faham bahasa plak??
Nak buat bodo, tapi kadang tu asyik terfikir sebab tak suke orang terasa or sakit hati dengan sikap kita. kalau orang tu plak yang tak nak jaga perasaan kita, how???
Monday, June 22, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Mengapa harus begini??
As for all, terima kasih bagi yang memberi sokongan walaupun tidak secara direct tapi reaksi anda berkata-kata memberi kesan indirect yang cukup bermakna. trimas skali lagi.
Ok, so what?? Aku dah berpunya, so?? Adakah itu meletakkan anda semua ke belakang?? Adakah aku mengetepikan korang sebagai seorang sahabat, member, kawan? Salahkah aku untuk suka dengan seseorang? Aku mohon maaf terlebih dahulu jika aku ada menyinggung sesiapa dan mengetepikan sesiapa.
Bila aku diam seribu bahasa, ada yang cakap aku saving balak. Bila aku bersuara, reaksi anda semua yang berubah. Mana perginya kata-kata "ala tak kisah pun, balak ko kan, janji ko suke..kitorg rileks je"... Mana hilangnya, 'kalau member dan betul-betul member, ikhlas nak kawan dengan kite, diorang mesti faham situasi serta kondisi kita.'
Mungkin masing-masing ada pendirian masing-masing. Mungkin pemikiran dan hati tidak sekata. Tapi aku tak sebut siapa, sendiri makan cili, sendiri la minum air.(ye dok??)
Aku juga tidak menyalahkan sesiapa, mungkin jiwa masih belum mampu berhenti atau take a break. Ada kemungkinan juga, peribahasa yang sering diwar-warkan di kalangan masyarakat dunia, 'Friend is forever' atau 'People will walk away, but friends stay' kurang sesuai untuk diaplikasikan ke dalam hidup segelintir insan. Mungkin patut di olah sedikit kepada 'Only TRUE friend is forever' dan 'People will walk away and stay, and TRUE friends stay'.
Kadang-kadang, benda remeh macam ni yang buat aku malas nak berfikir. Malas nak ambil port. Tapi tak kisah lah, orang nak fikir apa pun. Life must go on no matter what. Semoga anak-anak Adam a.s dan Hawa mendapat redha-Mu Yaa Robb~
HIDUP HARUS TABAH, DAN BERPIJAK DI ATAS KAKI SENDIRI. MENGHARAPKAN BENDA SEMENTARA UNTUK KEKAL BUKAN KUASA KITA.